I wish I could get excited about carrying the fight forward, but I can't. Like Galadriel, I have "fought the long defeat." I'm tired. I don't think defeat is inevitable, but I can't commit too many hopes to the effort.
My attitude is best conveyed by Colour Sgt. Bourne in the movie Zulu (see below). When asked, "Why us?" he replies stoically, "Because we're here." I will not submit to heresy. I will not be moved. I'm willing to die in the last ditch, as needed. But I am not going to lead any charges.
I am thankful that others are willing and feel able to go on offense. They have my prayers and any assistance they care to ask for. But I am on garrison duty only right now.
Why us? Because we're here. |